I think that's the longest break I've ever taken from blogging!
I have honestly been meaning to blog for months...but I almost always fall asleep before I mean to at night these days because Jane has become a terrible sleeper. She used to be soo good! She'd sleep through the night from 3-7 months.
And then she got her first tooth and sleeping through the night was a thing of the past.
But that's not really what I want to blog about.
I've really missed writing. I can't really call myself a writer, per say, but I do really enjoy it.
But here's what I've realized from my hiatus: I don't really like writing updates. I don't like telling you about my trips. I don't like uploading hundreds of pictures. And, here's the epiphany part, I realized that I don't have to write about those things if I don't want to.
So.
I'm just going to write about what I want. I'm not going to try to catch up and tell you all about the holidays. Because aint nobody got time for things they don't have to and don't want to do. I'm going to make a goal to write something every week. Because I want to.
If you want to see all of my pictures and updates add me on Instagram, k?
Intagram is totally my social media jive, by the way. It's by far my favorite. Everytime I look at my account I am reminded of how lovely and wonderful my life really is. I love that it allows me to capture tiny, but sweet moments with my little family that I hold so dear in my heart. And I love getting a glimpse of those moments in other people's lives!
Ok, so maybe I lied a little bit. Because this is going to sort of be an update. But, only because I want to. And I will probably do an update/re-cap of Jane turning one at some point in time. You're welcome.
Right now we're in the process of moving and can I just say...yuck. Moving is the absolute worst. And so is buying and selling your house. The entire process has honestly been such a nightmare, but that's a story for another day. Mostly because I don't want to write it out right now. Do you see what I just did there? I'm the boss of this blog and I write what I want.
Anyway, I have so many mixed feelings on the move. I have loved this house since the day I saw it. For years I would feel so happy every single time I pulled in the driveway. This was our first house. We put so much work into it. We started our family here. There have been countless happy moments within these walls. We also had so many plans for the house and the yard that we never got to and that makes me really sad because I feel like I let the house and yard down (what? I know, it doesn't even make any sense.). And our neighbors! They are the absolute best and it's so hard to imagine having neighbors this good anywhere else. But, at some point in time everyone has to ask themselves,
"Are you going to love it?"
"Or are you going to list it?"
I literally thought about this for like 6 months.
In the end we decided we had to list it. (obviously.)
There's just not enough space, especially if we intend to have more kids one day, which we do.
Which brings me to another point. I feel like when you're baby turns one you are obligated to start thinking about your next kid. Does anyone else feel this pressure?! I honestly haven't had that many people ask me about it, but I just feel the pressure.
But, let me just tell you, not because people have asked, but because I want to. (Because, you really should't ask! But, that's a blog post for another day. And not because I don't want to, because I really want to! It's just because it deserves its own blogpost.)
So, are we going to adopt or do Foster care again?!
Not right this minute. Honestly, I just don't feel like it's time yet. Yes, I get baby hungry when I see newborns! But who doesn't? I can't put my finger on it, but there has always been something really magical about the two kiddos we have. I remember when we left to bring Jane home and the four of us were together for the first time since Jane was born and I felt complete. I don't think it meant that our family was complete, but that at that moment, we were complete. I know, I know. It doesn't make any sense! I have felt that same feeling countless other times. There is just something really special about the four of us and I'm not ready for that to be over. Right now we're good. We're so happy with the way things are I'm also not ready to dive into the world of disappointment and despair that ultimately comes with trying to grow your family and being infertile. This year and a half long break without that looming over my head has been an absolute dream and I just don't think I'm mentally or emotionally ready to dive into that business right now. I'm also not ready for Jane to not be the baby anymore. I'm soaking up every single second of this golden one year old stage. I think it might be my favorite! Can I get all the heart eye emoticons for this one?!
Can I just talk for a minute about how our Little Guy is in preschool?! He started school the same week Jane turned one, Little Guy decided he was too big for his booster seat for the table, and Jane learned to climb the stairs. Crush my heart!
Anyway, I had no intention of putting him in preschool. I was actually really looking forward to teaching him myself at home and then doing joyschool with some friends that have kiddos his age. But, after months of thought and prayer I agreed to put him in a preschool that was recommended to us. I was so sad to send him off and completely unprepared for that, but it felt like the very best decision for him in the end. It's only a couple of times a week and really not a big deal at all, but it sure felt like it during the deciding process. I think that because I wanted to be a mom so long I try my very hardest to hold onto every single moment and not having him home seemed too sad. It has been nice for us to get breaks from one another though, and spending one on one time with Jane has been nice too. Plus, he absolutely loves it! Although, it has made him feel like a big kid and now wants to be super independent, so I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that...
But, his teachers love him and say he's so smart and such a good role model for the other kids. You guys, he really is just a golden kid. He's honestly the sweetest and kindest little kid that I know. And he sees the world through the prettiest rose colored glasses that anyone could ever own. He seems to only see the good in this world and therefore, ends up being so much of the good in this world.
Also, it's Springtime! And I find myself excited about that, which is really odd. Normally it's really not my favorite. For whatever reason this particular change in season always puts me in a bit of a funk, but this year I'm just soaking up every second of those pretty blossoms outside. But maybe that's because April has just begun? Like, as in, 40 minutes ago. For me, April generally really is the cruelest month. But, I have high hopes that it will not be the case this year. I'm just feeling really hopeful these days.
I decided recently that I need a thing. I feel like everyone has a thing. I have friends that read a ton, friends that write, craft, sing, crossfit, etc. What I do in my spare time when I'm not being a mom? I sleep, eat, sometimes read, but mostly just play on social media. I guess writing is kind of one of my things, except that I'm not really trained in it and I haven't actually done it since September, but that's changing! I also decided that I want photography to be my thing. I've always kind of felt like I have a bit of a knack for it and it's something I really love doing. I want to learn more about how to take great pictures and how to use photoshop. I was lucky enough to inheret my step-mom's old Canon Rebel for my birthday this year, so I've been trying to figure that out as of late. Since it used to be hers I don't actually have a lense for it yet and the only lense she has left is a close up one, so that's all I've been using so far. I'm pretty pleased with how some of my blossom pictures have turned out though (the ones you've seen throughout this post. These are unedited, I might add, so don't judge too harshly!). I don't intend to make money off of photography (although, I did sell a photo I took of a sunset for $20 a few years ago). I just want to take pretty pictures.
So, now I just need a thing that involves exercise.
Happy Springtime everyone!
I have honestly been meaning to blog for months...but I almost always fall asleep before I mean to at night these days because Jane has become a terrible sleeper. She used to be soo good! She'd sleep through the night from 3-7 months.
And then she got her first tooth and sleeping through the night was a thing of the past.
But that's not really what I want to blog about.
I've really missed writing. I can't really call myself a writer, per say, but I do really enjoy it.
But here's what I've realized from my hiatus: I don't really like writing updates. I don't like telling you about my trips. I don't like uploading hundreds of pictures. And, here's the epiphany part, I realized that I don't have to write about those things if I don't want to.
So.
I'm just going to write about what I want. I'm not going to try to catch up and tell you all about the holidays. Because aint nobody got time for things they don't have to and don't want to do. I'm going to make a goal to write something every week. Because I want to.
If you want to see all of my pictures and updates add me on Instagram, k?
Intagram is totally my social media jive, by the way. It's by far my favorite. Everytime I look at my account I am reminded of how lovely and wonderful my life really is. I love that it allows me to capture tiny, but sweet moments with my little family that I hold so dear in my heart. And I love getting a glimpse of those moments in other people's lives!
Ok, so maybe I lied a little bit. Because this is going to sort of be an update. But, only because I want to. And I will probably do an update/re-cap of Jane turning one at some point in time. You're welcome.
Right now we're in the process of moving and can I just say...yuck. Moving is the absolute worst. And so is buying and selling your house. The entire process has honestly been such a nightmare, but that's a story for another day. Mostly because I don't want to write it out right now. Do you see what I just did there? I'm the boss of this blog and I write what I want.
Anyway, I have so many mixed feelings on the move. I have loved this house since the day I saw it. For years I would feel so happy every single time I pulled in the driveway. This was our first house. We put so much work into it. We started our family here. There have been countless happy moments within these walls. We also had so many plans for the house and the yard that we never got to and that makes me really sad because I feel like I let the house and yard down (what? I know, it doesn't even make any sense.). And our neighbors! They are the absolute best and it's so hard to imagine having neighbors this good anywhere else. But, at some point in time everyone has to ask themselves,
"Are you going to love it?"
"Or are you going to list it?"
I literally thought about this for like 6 months.
In the end we decided we had to list it. (obviously.)
There's just not enough space, especially if we intend to have more kids one day, which we do.
Which brings me to another point. I feel like when you're baby turns one you are obligated to start thinking about your next kid. Does anyone else feel this pressure?! I honestly haven't had that many people ask me about it, but I just feel the pressure.
But, let me just tell you, not because people have asked, but because I want to. (Because, you really should't ask! But, that's a blog post for another day. And not because I don't want to, because I really want to! It's just because it deserves its own blogpost.)
So, are we going to adopt or do Foster care again?!
Not right this minute. Honestly, I just don't feel like it's time yet. Yes, I get baby hungry when I see newborns! But who doesn't? I can't put my finger on it, but there has always been something really magical about the two kiddos we have. I remember when we left to bring Jane home and the four of us were together for the first time since Jane was born and I felt complete. I don't think it meant that our family was complete, but that at that moment, we were complete. I know, I know. It doesn't make any sense! I have felt that same feeling countless other times. There is just something really special about the four of us and I'm not ready for that to be over. Right now we're good. We're so happy with the way things are I'm also not ready to dive into the world of disappointment and despair that ultimately comes with trying to grow your family and being infertile. This year and a half long break without that looming over my head has been an absolute dream and I just don't think I'm mentally or emotionally ready to dive into that business right now. I'm also not ready for Jane to not be the baby anymore. I'm soaking up every single second of this golden one year old stage. I think it might be my favorite! Can I get all the heart eye emoticons for this one?!
Can I just talk for a minute about how our Little Guy is in preschool?! He started school the same week Jane turned one, Little Guy decided he was too big for his booster seat for the table, and Jane learned to climb the stairs. Crush my heart!
Anyway, I had no intention of putting him in preschool. I was actually really looking forward to teaching him myself at home and then doing joyschool with some friends that have kiddos his age. But, after months of thought and prayer I agreed to put him in a preschool that was recommended to us. I was so sad to send him off and completely unprepared for that, but it felt like the very best decision for him in the end. It's only a couple of times a week and really not a big deal at all, but it sure felt like it during the deciding process. I think that because I wanted to be a mom so long I try my very hardest to hold onto every single moment and not having him home seemed too sad. It has been nice for us to get breaks from one another though, and spending one on one time with Jane has been nice too. Plus, he absolutely loves it! Although, it has made him feel like a big kid and now wants to be super independent, so I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that...
But, his teachers love him and say he's so smart and such a good role model for the other kids. You guys, he really is just a golden kid. He's honestly the sweetest and kindest little kid that I know. And he sees the world through the prettiest rose colored glasses that anyone could ever own. He seems to only see the good in this world and therefore, ends up being so much of the good in this world.
Also, it's Springtime! And I find myself excited about that, which is really odd. Normally it's really not my favorite. For whatever reason this particular change in season always puts me in a bit of a funk, but this year I'm just soaking up every second of those pretty blossoms outside. But maybe that's because April has just begun? Like, as in, 40 minutes ago. For me, April generally really is the cruelest month. But, I have high hopes that it will not be the case this year. I'm just feeling really hopeful these days.
I decided recently that I need a thing. I feel like everyone has a thing. I have friends that read a ton, friends that write, craft, sing, crossfit, etc. What I do in my spare time when I'm not being a mom? I sleep, eat, sometimes read, but mostly just play on social media. I guess writing is kind of one of my things, except that I'm not really trained in it and I haven't actually done it since September, but that's changing! I also decided that I want photography to be my thing. I've always kind of felt like I have a bit of a knack for it and it's something I really love doing. I want to learn more about how to take great pictures and how to use photoshop. I was lucky enough to inheret my step-mom's old Canon Rebel for my birthday this year, so I've been trying to figure that out as of late. Since it used to be hers I don't actually have a lense for it yet and the only lense she has left is a close up one, so that's all I've been using so far. I'm pretty pleased with how some of my blossom pictures have turned out though (the ones you've seen throughout this post. These are unedited, I might add, so don't judge too harshly!). I don't intend to make money off of photography (although, I did sell a photo I took of a sunset for $20 a few years ago). I just want to take pretty pictures.
Happy Springtime everyone!
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